Anyway, it's not like there's a lot to say. We're talking. She apologized for the way she told me. I still think it's the stupidest thing I've ever heard of, and the fact that she has a kill switch in her head is awful, but I guess I can stop being mad at her about it.
If you keep saying nice things about me I might start blushing. I feel like I need to get into a fight just to get on even footing again, except you'd know my heart wasn't in it.
Anyway, just so you know--you're one of my people, too.
[Sigh. He knows he's just being difficult for the sake of being difficult.]
Because vengeance is more about making yourself feel better than it is about any real justice, and it doesn't actually make you feel that much better in the long run anyway.
Exactly. And you might end up hurting the people you actually care about, the ones who matter. If you kill or hurt someone because of me, how do you think I would feel about it?
Man, I feel like the disappointment is what would actually kill me, but I think you'd be pissed. You sure wouldn't be happy I decided to take matters into my own hands, and that would kind of defeat the purpose, wouldn't it?
You're a better person than me, Sheehan. I hope you know that.
But anyway, that's still the point. Being a violent asshole just because it might make me feel better is... dumb. And pointless. And it's shooting myself in the foot, because I'd have to look you in the eye and say what I did. That sure as shit wouldn't make me feel better.
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Anyway, it's not like there's a lot to say. We're talking. She apologized for the way she told me. I still think it's the stupidest thing I've ever heard of, and the fact that she has a kill switch in her head is awful, but I guess I can stop being mad at her about it.
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For what it's worth, you've been handling your anger very well.
But if you want to let it go, then you're doing so with remarkable grace. You've come a long way, Shaun.
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I don't know. She didn't do it at me. People do stupid shit all the time. Why is this stupid thing getting under my skin so much.
[shrug]
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That's what I'm getting mushy about.
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Anyway, just so you know--you're one of my people, too.
Don't get weird about it.
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But you aren't going to do something stupid like avenge me, are you?
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But I won't if you don't want me to.
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Can you guess why?
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[Sigh. He knows he's just being difficult for the sake of being difficult.]
Because vengeance is more about making yourself feel better than it is about any real justice, and it doesn't actually make you feel that much better in the long run anyway.
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Aside from disappointed at you.
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Sad that you felt the need to hurt someone in my name, when I believe in the value of life with as little violence as possible.
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But anyway, that's still the point. Being a violent asshole just because it might make me feel better is... dumb. And pointless. And it's shooting myself in the foot, because I'd have to look you in the eye and say what I did. That sure as shit wouldn't make me feel better.
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You have that opportunity and you're doing it.
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It's because I choose to be. I make choices every day that I know affect other people.