"Yes, it should, but I think we both know better than to trust people just because they're in positions of authority. I didn't ask to be born into a world with Kellis-Amberlee, but I did ask to be on the Barge." She chose this, knowing the risks she would inflict on every person on board.

"It is on me to manage the risks I carry with me. I always know my angles, Shaun. I trust Iris a hell of a lot more than the Admiral. And I," her voice falters here, breaking a little as she admits, "I don't know how I would live with doing to anyone else what I did to Misty last fall. Once was already too much. It would fucking wreck me. We're not supposed to wake up and live with the knowledge that we bit and turned someone."

It still eats at her.